I have learned . . .

I have learnt to let the hurt, hurt
I have learnt never to hold a grudge
I have learnt to handle grievances immediately they occur
I have learnt that no one can read my mind(except my mother)
I have accepted that they shall be good days and bad days
I have learnt that circumstances shouldn't alter my believes
I have learnt that principles are meant to be upheld
I have learnt that i'm not always right
I have learnt that i can only control my actions

I'm dumb but not stupid *giggles*

I must admit i like bad boys. I'm dumb but not stupid so i tend to appreciate them from a distance.I've never dated a guy that i'm totally into. Like i said i like bad boys and most girls do.I don't know why.But i'm not trying to have a relationship with them.Its sure heartbreak,i think but then again i believe in taking risks and staying away from the good looking suave guy is a wimps mentality. So why do i do it? So called good boys break heart s too. And i'll never be content with going out with the safe guy forever. Someday my attraction to HOT BOYZ will exceed my  security,(heartwise) and i'll take the leap and live happily ever after(positive thinking baby)

New Moon features a Kenyan son

An undeniable Kenyan accent sounded off the Tv as i typed away on twitter.I quickly grabbed the remote and increased the volume.Yes definitely Kenyan but what his name again Edi Gathegi appeared at the bottom of the screen.I scurried Back to my PC to google the Kenyan son. Low and behold he turned out to be quite the actor.He has managed to achieve quite a number of notable roles on material such as crank,Csi,gone baby gone,etc.And baby has two more movies coming out this year.
I'm proud of his accomplishments.Many a african american actors are always whining about not enough work for black actors but if Edi can do it i'm sure they should too.But i digress, that is another blog post entirely.CONGRATULATIONS BROTHER


More on this brother can be found at www.imdb.com/name/nm1346230/
Follow him on twitter @iamedigathegi

A rose by any other name is still a rose

Over the years i have let the critics and nay sayers erode my being.I have become like a shell.My smile is not joy and my laughter is not merry.They say seek and ye shall find.Well,I'm seeking cause i sure would like to find.

I have this haunting fear that i may have lost myself to the world.Sold my soul to the devil type thing.my beliefs are no more yet i portray another man's opinion of me? So wrong for me to do.Betraying myself has been my worst failures.But I've learnt to forgive myself.Nothing good is gained from self deprecating behaviour i embrace my essence the good and the bad for it is who i am.

I love myself unconditionally and you can't tell me nothing.

my spirit is fighting

sometimes one gotta hope against hope. i'm feeling wierd,i'm suffocating and i don't know why. i've done my best, i've won but i still feel defeated. when you've struggled so long sometimes your mind is a lagging factor even after the storm it still manages to somehow convince me i'm hopeless. Aluta continua...I guess

relationships suck ... when you do them wrong!

relationships are a necessary evil.Love only feels right when it's perfect.Many love but judge their beloved, love but hurt those they profess to love. That kind of love is imperfect and very addictive to some.People keep going back and forth cause the lips say i love you but the actions say i couldn't careless.LOVING SELF is such a necessary state of mind.ACHIEVE IT.